I don't know what to feel about this whole thing. It really makes me lose faith in everything.

I don't know what to feel. Should I be happy? But nevertheless, I will be happy as long as you are happy. I hope you can find your happiness. I hope you can find someone who's better than me. I hope you can find someone, prettier, skinner, cuter, more adorable, less petty, more reasonable than me. I hope you can find someone, who is whatever I am not. But deep down, I know, it will definitely hurt me like crap if you ever find that someone.

These 1 year and 2 months had been a really great one. You have been a great boyfriend, great companion, great best-friend, great advisor.

I am sorry I didn't cherish you, I am sorry for whatever I have done, for not understanding you, for not letting you to always play games, to always nag at you, for forcing you to eat the vegetables i cook, for eating my disgusting cheesecake, for snatching your computer so that I can play maple and watch my k-pop videos. I am sorry. I am sorry for talking to guys that you dislike, I am sorry for being close with more guys than girls. I am sorry for appearing in your life.

Once thought we would last through marriage, told all my friends that "we will prove you wrong, we will last through marriage, you shall be my bridesmaid on my wedding night" But guess reality really hit me hard. Time to wake up, no more dreams. 

Deep down, I still wish for you. But i know, i know you definitely deserve someone better.

Sorry for not being a good girlfriend, sorry for not being able to give you what you want.

I hope, she can.

(I love you)

J A N I S E U。