I'm so so so so so stress these few days. I have no idea why too. I'm irritated by this, by that, by everything and everyone. I'm irritated by myself getting irritated at all these irritating stupid shits. One of the biggest reasons to why I am feeling this way may be due to the fact that school's starting tomorrow. 

School's starting tomorrow. I'm really really afraid of the people we will be meeting. Not all will be genuine to you. In fact, I think 70% of the people we meet are actually fakes and hypocrites. I'm so freaking straightforward, I just say whatever are in my mind. Sometimes I offend so many people because they think that I'm insensitive to others' feelings. But what's wrong with being honest and straightforward/? Do we really have to be all fake to be able to have lots of lots of friends? I mean, I'd rather have 1 true and real friend than thousands of fake friends. Is it that hard to survive in the society? Can't everybody be truthful to one another and just voice out our opinions instead of bitching behind their backs? After so much that had happened, I'm so scared of being real, so scared of being truthful, so scared of being so straightforward, so scared of being an extrovert and someone who speaks so much. I used to be a hyper kid, running around, screaming, yelling and just being happy. And now, I have to keep everything to myself, bottling up all these feels because not everyone can be trusted and fake people tend to have more friends and love. But it's so tiring, so tired that I think I will just break down and collapse one day. 

No, I'm definitely not 100% real. I bitch about people too, I am sometimes two faced and I'm really disgusted by the side of me. I'm so disgusted by myself. I hate myself. But what can I do? 

I'm really glad that I met some really awesome people during the FOP 2013. I made awesome friends, great friends, and fun friends. I just hope that all these will not end. I hope the friendships will not be temporary but everyone will make an effort to keep the friendships. 

So much to say, but the more I say, the more I get judged. So i think i should really stfu and go to sleep right now.

Goodnight. I hope things go well tomorrow even though I have really bad feeling about school.