Been meeting up with Boyfriend these few days for supper and late night talks. I swear I've gained a few kilograms of fats. -insert sad face-. Supper/breakfast at 7am at Bestie's crib with Boyfriend after gaming the whole night and since then, I screwed my body clock. Been sleeping at 5/6am and waking up at 4pm for a few days now and I have no idea how to wake up for orientation and school next week.
Dear, I know how hard things are right now for the both of us. I know how everyone thinks that we will never make it and we will just be strangers again after a few months. But their thoughts aren't our concern. I have faith in myself, in you, and in us. I know we can make it through these shits. I know how horrible and miserable you feel deep inside your heart because you're stuck in the middle between your family and I. I know how hard you're trying to keep that smile on my face. I know you're afraid that I'll hear all the negative comments from them and then turn the smile upside down. I know that you're afraid that I'll leave because of all your family. But no, baby, I will stay. I will stay no matter how hard the journey is, I will stay no matter how tough it is, no matter how bad those insults are, I will stay. Because it's you, it's worth it. I know I have really bad princess attitude and temper but please put up with them. I know it's hard to handle my childish personality so thank you for putting up with it for the past few months. You know about my past, you know everything, thank you for not judging me and continue staying by my side. Thank you for not leaving despite all the bad things I've done. Yes, I may not be your first, you may not be my first, but I hope and wish that we can be each other's last. Remember our date in 6 years time ;). I love you xoxoxo.