Life.
Everyday I wake up knowing that i'm still breathing, I ask God when will he stop torturing me and just take me away. Having to live for 16 years is more than enough for me. Who would want to live in a world full of lies and betrayals?

I've just overcome the first real obstacle in my life (O's) yet in the process, I've met so many, just so many hypocrites. It is really beyond my imagination the kind of people I will meet after I finished my education and step into the real world. People have been telling me that what I have seen is nothing compared to the real world out there. Why can't people be real and just be themselves? Why?

I remember so vividly that stepping on the big stones at the playground and playing silly little games and running around the neighborhood used to be my only source of happiness. And the only thing I'd cry for is when my friends "unfriend" me but the next moment, we will be seen running around and laughing again. Life was so simple. No lies, no betrayals. "Hypocrites" doesn't even exist in my dictionary back then.

Did I become more greedy? Is it just myself? Or did happiness become more difficult to find? Why can't I be contented with what I have now? Why can't I genuinely be happy? Why God, Why?

Yes, of course I miss my mom. But I'm sure the world she's living in now is so much better than the world we are all living in. Why mummy, why didn't you take me with you?

J A N I S E U。