I hate it and I feel so shitty because everybody around me actually studies and all of them actually know what on earth that crazy woman or man standing in front of the class are talking about. Everyone is getting so competitive and selfish nowadays just because final year exam is just round the corner. Now, nobody will be that kind and good or maybe generous enough to actually tell you about what topics are tested for a certain subject or what homework do you have. All of them keep it to themselves and they never want to share with others because they are simply afraid that the other person will score better than them. Feel so scary now because I actually experienced it just hours ago. (Not talking about anyone in particular). I asked at least 5 of them what topics are going to be tested for the upcoming chemistry test, and none of them gave me the answer I want. Everyone was like "I don't know","I also not sure" etc. I mean... if you don't know and you end up scoring for that test? #Irony? Yes.. If everyone is already like this this year, what will become of them next year? (O'levels). Are they just gonna mug madly for their exams and just heck care about what is happening around them or are they going to be that competitive to the extent that they purposely tell the others the wrong information or wrong details when people asked them about their studies? I am very proud if I studied. But people now, study without letting anyone know. Crap up some excuses that they have to go home early and then force themselves to study till their brain explode. And then go to school and feign innocent, going around telling people "Oh, i don't study". Hey what, come on, are you guys so desperate for people to tell you that " woah, oh my god, you're so damn fucking smart, how can you not study and fucking ace your test or score well for it? Oh my god, you're a fucking smart bitch".

Feel so scary. 

Scary to be around all of them because they aren't those people I used to know anymore. 

I no longer know which sentence of theirs are real, and which sentence are just hoax and lies. 

My primary school teacher used to ask us to study hard and build a strong foundation because life will be super competitive in the future because everyone just want to win each other, I used to laugh at what she says because those friends I knew weren't like what she said. Now, I'm laughing at myself because I feel like a fool

(Pardon me for the broken English or wrong sentence structure or whatever blahblahblah, typed this chunk of thing out in an, let say, emotional state)