Sometimes I really ask myself if all these will be worth it.

It feels as though like someone stab you straight into your heart yet that very same person promise that he will not let you die. It feels as though like all these while that I've been fighting for you, nothing seems to work at all.

I literally swallowed my pride to fight for this love, to fight for this relationship, to fight for us. I smile and laugh a lot because I know how much you love to see me happy. I exercised and watch my diet so that I can overcome my illness so that I will be healthy.

But it's so tiring to constantly fighting for someone knowing that nothing will bring changed.

And it hurts so much remembering how badly I cried for you to not leave yet you just keep turning your back at me.